Overexposed~

Okay, is it just me or am I just rambling on empty? How do you grow up? Like, there could be a 40-year-old who still acts like a kid. And me? I just turned 20 and I still feel like how I did back when I was 14. How do I know if I've grown up? I feel like I haven't. And that's a weird feeling.

I see people my age using Blackberries, iPhones, super-canggihfied cellphones and I'm like... *looks down at my own cellphone* Hmm, is it just me or why do I feel like I don't need all those cellphones? But then again, why are people my age using those phones? Is that supposed to mark our sense of maturity or something? If that is so, I must still be a kid.

And then there's the whole social thing. I don't really do social events. I'm awkward by nature, magnified by the fact that I don't have the conventional Asian girl's height. So I tend to stick out so much, it scares me.

Plus, I don't have many friends. I don't know; I feel like I don't know how to choose people to be around with (because of past experiences, they let me down), but those people who are friends now, I cherish them so much.

Somehow I don't know how to tackle a problem head on. I tend to run; run so far away that sometimes when I feel like I can handle the problem, I have ran too far.

Sigh. I feel like I need to see a shrink. =(