When you are told that you are the best, but then another thing shows that this is not so, disappointment kicks in.
It kicks in hard.
Stop dreaming, Mel.
Time to wake up.

Christmasy Genting~

Awesome masquerade mask. Nyehehe! It was just RM10; Mum asked to just grab it, but I was like "When is there gonna be a masquerade ball..?"


I hope she doesn't see this. I hope she forgets I have a blog. XD

Haha this pic is real cute. See all the dangly thingy on top of our heads? The other two strangers were the salespersons. See how posey the salesgirl got? Haha she leaned so much towards Sis.


Outside Genting's Mango Outlet. I'm sooo addicted to MNG, it's not funny anymore. The awesome thing was that the clothes in Genting's MNG are so darn cheap. So of course MUST GRAB!

Ahh, yes. That "That's Superman!" pose. A classic.

I get it; I'm a posey posey person. (No, I don't want to say I'm a poser; sounds...ugh.) I love the awesome big star on the top. [Outside First World Casino]
Haha Genting went green with it's Christmas deco. EVERYTHING there was made up of plastic bottles. Including this cute lil' Snowman and Santa in the sleigh.

4 more days! =)

Realization~

I've come to understand the beauty of friendship and the awful side of being enemies;
The beauty emanating from an apology;
The beauty one makes of a BBQ session. ;)

Editted (4/12/10):

I've decided.
Why post a hateful blog post when you've got to be matured yourself?
It is time to grow up.
All together now.

Is there another law school nearby where I can finish this Degree at?

Misused?

I do realise that I only use this blog for ranting... most of the time anyway.
Well. I have this one subject where I have to lose my sleep for, to forgo fun events for and to basically just lose precious time working on it when I could have been studying for a different and more crucial subject altogether.
And what do I get for doing so much for this subject?
Ah, what else but more stress.

Then there are people who are just outrightly blunt in saying things.
Maybe it's just their lack in communication skills or just plain bad in a certain language.
I'm sorry, but you do not tell a person that what she did was wrong.
Especially when you don't even know how to do it yourself.
Look, if you're so uncertain and scared, why didn't you inquire from the others from the beginning?
Why rely on me if I'm "wrong"?
Nobody knows what the heck was right or wrong in doing the darn thing okay.
You just had to bring my spirits down when you know I'm already so stressed out right before the exam.

I hate crying in public. I seriously do.


Sigh. Thank goodness I have a blog.

Saying you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
You're stretching out your arms to something that's just not there
Saying you love where you stand
Give your heart when you can

Inspirations, inspirations~

Oh gosh. I've got Metallica to thank for; for giving me an idea on a tough, tough, tough assignment.

Yay to the Sandman!

Tell me how I’m supposed to breathe with no air…



She looked over at him. She took in everything: his boyish features, the way his eyes crinkled when he laughed or smiled, the way he looked at her. Her heart skipped a beat.

“Teach me how to do it again,” she said.

He took her fingers and gently guided them on the guitar strings. His fingers pressed firmly onto hers as he strummed the guitar. She flinched; her fingers felt a slight discomfort from the vibrations of the strings.

“Are you sure we’re supposed to press it that hard?” she asked.

He laughed her favourite laugh. His eyes, she thought. Her heart melted.

“Yes, if we want to make it a perfect-sounding chord. But we’ll do something way easier.”

He took her hand into his and held it tight. She squeezed it back but he managed to grip it tighter. She went straight into his arms, leaning her head against his chest. She could feel his heartbeat; she could feel his love emanating right through. By no means of force, a smile spread wide across her face. My happy place, she thought giddily.

All in a Day's... Play?

It wasn't exactly a holiday yesterday, but I decided to make it so.
Anyway, continuing... ;P
My parents and I went out for breakfast and my dad suggested something so randomly: to go to Tangkak for lunch. We had to buy curtains anyway, he claims.
And he was right, though I'd thought Bunga Raya was pretty near enough..
But whatever to get out of the state for a while. =)
Eeep! I forgot to bring my camera hence the no-photo post. Plus, I didn't know it would turn out to be an 'adventure-filled' day. =(

And so we began our curtain-hunting trip.
We took the old kampung road, i.e. not by the highway. We did stop by some of the little towns along the way; I'd describe them as quaint and it's as if they are places where time forgot. Old Ah Peks without their shirts on riding their motorcycles to get to places; sundry shops with faded posters from yesteryears and basically old wooden run-down buildings but with businesses still operating in them.
Something even for Malacca that I didn't know still exists.

Tangkak is nearer to Malacca than even to Muar. That's what Pa said, though I didn't buy it at first; but gosh, Tangkak is just 15 min from Jasin town (where my dad proudly told us of his childhood days - days where he grew up in the estate).
For some unknown reason, Tangkak seems to be really what we were looking for - textile shops EVERYWHERE. A whole street full of 'em.
And haha mission accomplished: we got what we went there for. We had to wait 2 hours for it to be completely done, and that's when our 'adventure' begun.

We went to Gunung Ledang. Okay fine, the foot of Gunung Ledang, which by the way, it's English name is Mount Ophir; did you know that? Awesome stuff..
Okay let me rephrase that: we went to Sagil Waterfalls. Yes. THE Sagil Waterfalls. You know, the one where it's famed for after-developing-photos-an-extra-someone-happens-to-be-in-it-but-no-one-remembered-inviting-that-someone-to-be-in-that-shot?
Erm. Well. That's why I didn't bring my cam. No, that wasn't the reason laa. I just completely forgot laa. And besides, I thought the trip was all about curtain-hunting.

The entrance is somewhat unpublicised I would say. Entrance fees: RM2 for cars, RM1 for an adult. I forgot how much it was for vans, children and some other scribbles on the signboard.
So once you enter, you'll pass like two shops selling floats, keropok and swimsuits for those people who either forgot to pack theirs or decided to swim at the last min. Though I'd think everyone knows what Sagil has to offer.
And then there's the Gunung Ledang Resort for those who wants to wait for their hiker friends to climb the mountain and get back down (I think) or for those who just want to feel the cool environment without having to camp by the waterfall.

So we finally reached the waterfall and the current was really swift, probably because it was raining earlier, before we came.
And to make our RM5 worth it, Pa and I dipped our feet into the cold (read: EXTREMELY) water. While Mum was busy whacking mozzies.
I got out of the water; but dad realized that there were actually fishes in there.
It became a natural fish spa for him (though Mum kept telling him to get out of there 'cause those fishies look big enough to have teeth hahahahaha).

And today was the day (or since a long time ago..?) when I know that I'm SO NOT an outdoorsy person:

1. I squirmed at stationary things (tiny wood pieces, small flowers) that got into my sandals.
2. I saw a longer-than-usual millipede (cue horror movie sound effect) and shook so hard.
3. A lot of other reasons. A lot. Sorry Mother Nature. I love you, but itsy-bitsy crawlie-wallies really bug me (no pun intended).

Whatever it is, Sagil is a great place to go. It's something so natural, you just have to see it for yourself.

I call it: Back to Basics. =)

Selena G over ddlovato~

Ooh, I love her dress! ^^

If I have to choose a Disney darling, I'd root for Selena. I mean, Demi is just so overrated. And Miley? Hmmm...no.

Selena has the more catchy songs. Yikes, A Year Without Rain has been stuck in my head for a few days already.

But if I'd have to pick between the shows, I'd choose Hannah Montana over Sonny with a Chance and Wizards of Waverly Place.

Yeah, I know, I just don't like Demi. Sorry darl.

Yay Team Selena. =)

I am human and I need to be loved; just like everybody else does~

I was only around 9 or 10 years old when this show first aired on tv.

This song has a haunting quality to it. I like! =)

Realize I'm being all sentimental-y? Am I turning back to the classics or does that mean I'm just getting old? Hmm...

Random randomness~

Currently listening to: Goo Goo Dolls' Iris. This song transports me back to my primary schooling days. Feeling sentimental...

Anyway, today we went to go choose Sis' wedding pics. =)
She is so beautiful, though she keeps doubting herself. I just want to shake her and drill some sense into her.

Had some family time today. Ohmygosh, my cousin Rachel's baby girl Sarah is just a bundle of joy - literally. She keeps laughing at the littlest things. Just adorable and lovable. =)

And now, back to researching for next week's tutorials. Workload kicking in.

Phuket Trip Day 2~

I know, I know.. It's been like somewhat a gazillion years since posting Day 1 and this, and during that period, classes have already started and I've then been hooked on Usher's song, but in my defence, it's all Blogger's fault!

Dammit - this post took me 1 hr and 14 min to just upload the pics; they've said in their Help guide to revert to the Old Post edittor.. that's just wank! It didn't work. So people who have trouble uploading pics, do what I did: upload your pics one by one. Yup, you need loads of patience!

Anyway, continuing to my va-kay. Phuket reminds me of Penang; it's like Penang on crack. Haha took that line from Giuliana & Bill.

What made it more awesome-r is the fact that there are doggies roaming everywhere and I mean EVERYWHERE.

Okay, less talk, more pretty pictures.
Note: As my patience was running low, I didn't manage to put in all the pics I had originally intended. If some of you are lucky and have access to my FB page, feel free to view the complete album there. =)

Since we didn't have the time to look-see on the first day (due to mua), we started the day off at Patong Beach. We rented a car - quite cheap, around 1100baht - and had the whole day to visit the island. Here, I found Nemo! Though, isn't he supposed to be somewhere near Australia? =S

Take 2. Here, you have me...

... and then, you have a man jogging in his Speedos. XD

Like I said, doggies EVERYWHERE! Here's Abo the puppy. You see, we don't even know whether that's the pup's name, a local dude was calling him that. So we just went "Abo! Abo!" Heee he's just a dollop of cuteness! =D

After that, we decided to go where the road took us. But, our rented car ran out of petrol. It's kinda hard to find a decent petrol station in Patong town. Or so we thought. They have lots of gas stations as the one in the pic - manned by shopkeepers. The price by these little stations are not as controlled as the ones at Shell and Esso. =/

Kata Market. Stopped by to buy fruits and have a lil' coffee break. Pa always praised Thai coffee - it's sweet, but it's sweetness doesn't leave you feeling sick. Though, since I wasn't a real coffee lover, I opted for a coconut. It's soooo cheap: only 20 baht. And it tastes great. =)

Next, we went to this shopping mall; I think it's HomePro, I'm not too sure. Walked around. I bought a lil' wooden crafted elephant. Oh and did you know that when an elephant's trunk is up, it means good luck? Awesome stuff.

The pic was at the bakery.
Awesome label, no?

The Big Buddha. It's atop a mountain; they have ATVs there and the journey up takes a long time.

Someone commented in FB that this pic made us look like the PowerPuff Girls! Raincoats for 50baht each (which we later found out that it was only for 20baht elsewhere; things from Patong are a tee-bit more expensive).

The view from atop is just gorgeous. Cobalt blue sea and the town landscape.

Next off, to lunch. Here we are at what Pa calls the Phuket Chinatown. They were preparing for some sort of festival at the time: all the shops were selling white outfits; ALL the shops were selling WHITE, no other colours.

Come evening time, we headed off to Kata/Karon Beach. Sunset. I'll let you think of the proper adjective for this. =)

At night, we decided to walk around places near our hotel. This pic was taken at Bangla Street. As we passed, there were people coming up to us and were offering us to go watch the "Ladies Show". So my point is that Phuket is an awesome va-kay spot, but not so for families with small children.

McD's. Haha call me jakun, but I haven't seen pork burgers sold in McD's before. First time out to another country, remember?

Rock City! Yeah yeah! We ended up there after a long search for the best pub to enter (one of my dad's habits, we'll always search for a place with good live music to enjoy). This one definitely did not let us down. ^^

I got sort of high after that; giggling at no particular reason. My Mom was worried for a while there. ><

Awesome band, awesome Kong prop. =)

Late night snack. We were hungry. Of course barbequed chicken wings sound good at any time of the day.

We even went for a midnight ride in the car. But we didn't know how to get to the other part of the island. So we went back to the hotel at around 1am and decided to call it a day.

P.S. I may/may not post on Day 3. That depends. Blogger's image uploader is a wank, remember?

I'm not kidding: Blogger's image uploader is a piece of wank. Sighhhhhh...

Phuket Trip~

Before Blogger makes another glitch, I'd better take advantage of the ability to upload pics right...now.
So my family decided that we should all pack up our sunnies and sun block lotion and head on off to Phuket. It was my first time out of the country in 15 years. (yes, it was that long ago)

First off, credits to:

1. The pilots who flew us there and back home safely.
2. The taxi driver who drove us in his awesome Camry to our hotel from the airport.
3. The taxi company lady who gave me an extra plastic bag.
4. The medical crew in Patong Hospital.
5. The lady at the reception area of our hotel who directed us to the hospital.
6. The guy who invented Dimenhydrinate. =)

Day 1 (5th October)

We had to wake up at 2.30am to catch our flight which was departing at 7.30am. I didn't get to sleep at all (which is the worst thing ever if you're going to fly).

Had roti canai at 3.30am. Witnessed a really terrible accident along the way. Reached LCCT at about 6.30-ish.

Fast forward: we were in the plane and before anyone knew it, we were halfway to Phuket and I was asking for a barf bag and hot water.

My first step in a foreign country didn't go so well.

So basically, my first day of the trip was gone because the first thing I saw in Phuket was the wastepaper basket and the sink.

Threw up about 36 times (my sis counted) and then my parents decided enough was enough: off to the hospital.

So this is what I got from the first day:

A receipt showing how much I gotta pay for consultation and my meds, and my medical card. Oh and I got a jab as a souvenir from Thailand too. Talk about being touched deep in one's body, mind and soul after visiting a foreign land.

Felt a whole lot better after, and slept a lil' while and it was time for dinner. Had an authentic Thai vegetarian dish; they use lotsa peanuts and kangkung over there. Plus, everything tastes sweet: the soup, normal fried stuff, and things which are supposed to taste anything but sweet. Gotta get used to it. Wasn't easy. =P

Had a Subway sandwich (chicken teriyaki - yum yum) for supper. Was so drowsy from the med I didn't know what I ordered and before I knew it, we were back in the hotel and I was snarfing down my share. Then it was lights out.

More to come on Day 2 and Day 3.

=(

Sigh. Blogger's being such a biatch. I can't even upload a single pic.
Bummer~

Overexposed~

Okay, is it just me or am I just rambling on empty? How do you grow up? Like, there could be a 40-year-old who still acts like a kid. And me? I just turned 20 and I still feel like how I did back when I was 14. How do I know if I've grown up? I feel like I haven't. And that's a weird feeling.

I see people my age using Blackberries, iPhones, super-canggihfied cellphones and I'm like... *looks down at my own cellphone* Hmm, is it just me or why do I feel like I don't need all those cellphones? But then again, why are people my age using those phones? Is that supposed to mark our sense of maturity or something? If that is so, I must still be a kid.

And then there's the whole social thing. I don't really do social events. I'm awkward by nature, magnified by the fact that I don't have the conventional Asian girl's height. So I tend to stick out so much, it scares me.

Plus, I don't have many friends. I don't know; I feel like I don't know how to choose people to be around with (because of past experiences, they let me down), but those people who are friends now, I cherish them so much.

Somehow I don't know how to tackle a problem head on. I tend to run; run so far away that sometimes when I feel like I can handle the problem, I have ran too far.

Sigh. I feel like I need to see a shrink. =(

Fickle-Mindedness~

I felt like Pop Rock yesterday.
Today?
Bring on the Classic Rock, babyyy!

Singing along to not carrying guns around (read, or better yet listen: Nirvana) and praying that Mr Sandman doesn't bother me tonight (obviously my fav metal band).
Oh and Slash is awesome too.

Rock onnn!!!

P.S. See what Finals did to me? See? See??

Back to Basics~

So stressed out. Yet, only music can calm me down.
Today, move on over Met & JMac!
I'm going back to my roots: Pop Rock, mmhmm..

Ry oh Ry. RC.
My dear ol' Pineapple Head.
Redonkulous; fart on a flamingo
You put a smile on my face. Wooo!

So today I'm going back to Ryan Cabrera.
After all, I used to be one of his Chiclets.
I was his -ryangurl- .
Ohmygosh why did they totally abolish the whole Ryan Message Board?

Love love love You Stand Watching.
Back to 2005, ya'll!

My 20th!

I received so many surprises for my birthday (note: 10th Sept) this year. The first and best one was from Jyh, Gab and Qi Qi.

(Sorry Gabby and Qi; I don't have any pics with you guys!)

So basically, this is what they did: Jyh sent me a text at 11.50+pm on the 9th asking me about Torts. We exchanged texts til about 12.40ish. And then she went like "Are you going to sleep soon?" And I was like "Maybe.. Unless you want to come over and steal my dog. You'll never find her. Never!" I know I sound crazy, but that's the Panadol talking; I'm not kidding hahahahahaha!

Anyway, continuing. She went "Noo! Wait!" And then she started stalling and distracting me by asking so many other questions. Then she called "Er, Mel? I left something at your doorstep a few days ago. I'm not sure if it's still there. Can you go check now?" It may seem obvious, but it didn't occur to me what they were doing. So I went out to check. And as I was peeping through the gate, I saw this light, like fire. And I looked over in all my pajamas glory and in my 'whatever' and tadaa! Jyh, Gab and Qi were standing there with Miko and Ocha. And a cake with a lit candle in Jyh's hands and a bag on Qi's shoulder.

Cue "Jesus Christ; OMG; oh jeez!; etc." I was so touched by their deed that I almost cried. Almost.. ohmygosh, the sweetest bunch of friends on the planet. I love you guys; you're awesome! =D =D They made my day even before it started.

I got to play with the 2 doggies and got a handmade card and 2 statement tees from them. Thank you so much, you guys. Am loving the tees. Wore one today for dinner to celebrate my birthday and my uncle's. Taken pics with it. Will post them up here soon. And the "grandfather-grandmother story" conflict was really amusing. That got me laughing at 2am. Hehehe!

And then there were wishes on FB. All 58 of them. Wow. I feel so loved. Thank you so much! =)

And today is Sept the 11th. A very happy birthday to Uncle Kuna, Jie Florence (hehehe) and AJ. Have a great one. =)

And So...~

Last Friday was an experience. Like, if you drive, even for like 2 years+ and took off your P already, still please do be careful on the roads.

See, on the morning of 3rd September 2010, at 6.42am (yeap I set my alarm at odd minutes) I woke up with a tough decision - to come to Uni or not to come to Uni? But then again, it was Criminal lecture; why would I want to skip the class? So it wasn't a tough decision at all. Heck, it wasn't even a decision; more like compulsory attendance. So I got up and got ready to go at 7.25 am.

Little did I know, that so-called decision (or compulsory attendance, like I said) was a realllyyy bad one. First of all, it was raining. Probably an indication that I should have slept in or something.

Anyways, at 7.40am, I found myself in Bkt Piatu, soaked in the morning drizzle, texting Aun Chee that I won't be attending class. Reason? Sporty collided with a van in front. =(

I'm thankful though, that no one got hurt. Needless to say, there was a public display of...waterworks. And I don't mean the rain.

Ah, anyways, Finals are in 2 weeks time. Had a total breakdown yesterday. I'm really nervous; it's freaky; I'm scared. Okay, I need to chill.

Oooh, and I really can't wait for Pa to take out that light green electric guitar from his music room. Nyehehehehe! =D

Rant, much?

You know when you're starting to get sensitive when you see posts on FB that isn't meant for you, but you can't help reading it. But then this one made me feel left out. And that just isn't a good feeling.

Am I still supposed to call you a friend? Or friend(s)?

Sigh. I have got to stop making this blog a ranting place to rant about all the things that I'm ranting about.

Sigh. If only I don't have all the rants that need to be ranted about.

Okay, I'll stop.

Editted (11.25pm)
When a friend (s) does something like this to you, the hurt that comes along with it is like ... a hundred times worse.

There are just some things that can be left alone and some that you've got to address. I need to address on this certain matter, but they won't let me. Nooo, they wouldn't.

I raise my tone when I get defensive; doesn't everyone do that? I NEED TO BE HEARD. I can't talk while you're yapping away, thinking you're sooo right when guess what, you're not.

So. Don't tell me what to do, when I know what I'm doing. People forget things sometimes, don't they? Well, you forget A LOT of things. Everyday. So why am I not telling you off on those things again? Please remind me.

And I don't like to be talked down upon, even when you think you're right (when you're wrong, in reality). And DON'T TELL ME TO TAKE IT ALL IN EVEN IF IT'S WRONG: it's so against my principles. So what are you doing? What are you trying to prove? That you're older than me so you have EVERY RIGHT to tell me off? No. I don't think so.

And thanks for telling me that I argue with impeccable English, and that you can't seem to understand (even if you didn't admit that). That boosts my ego even more. =)

I Don't Act Like That~

Because my Momma taught me better than that. =)

A Dream...in a Dream...in a Dream...~

14th August 2010
11.45 am - *Contemplates on whether to call Steph L to go out or not... Hmm..* *picks up book back from the table and starts reading*

12.15 pm - *Phone rings*
Mel: Hello?
Steph L: Hey Mel! Wanna go watch Inception today?
Mel: Sure! Check the time and message me okay?
Steph L: Okay sure. Bye!
Mel: Bye!

Yeah. So Steph and I went to watch Inception today. I know. It's been in the cinema for over a decade already, I get it. Haha.. But still. Not too late, right?
Funniest thing: Steph while buying the tix could actually bump into Leslie and friend. So they bought tix for the same movie. Too bad we couldn't get 4-in-a-row seats.

Anyway, I would say that it was the best RM10 I've spent on a movie. I'm not kidding. An action movie, at that. And some of the good looking cast really helped make that money worth.

Leo, Leo, Leo. My first Hollywood crush. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha! Hey, who DIDN'T fall in love with him back in Titanic? He was hott, okay? ><

This pic of him really doesn't do any justice to his good looks. I mean, what's with the beard? He used to look like JMac when he was younger, goshh.

Okay. So I just admitted my childhood crush. Hee.. Was really crazy over him; bought a tee with his face on it. Like hahahahahaha a 7-year old kid having a crush on a guy that's so much older. He makes saving the environment, having a (past) relationship with a hott supermodel and looking cute seem so easy. Ahh well..

*yawns* Right. So where's the inception point again?

Readjustments~

Went out with the two Stephs today. I always love hanging out with 'em; 'cause we just know each other so well that no matter how long we've not met up, it still doesn't feel awkward at all. There is never like a long lingering awkward silence. And then Steph Lim had to go back to the lab to count and harvest cells. =.="

Then there were just Steph K and I. Had like a reallllllllllyyy long talk with her. And one thing I like about our talks: we can be really honest and frank with each other. So today she made me realize one of my weaknesses. And I'm thankful for that. It gave me a chance to improve on the way I see things. I've been thinking so negatively on a couple of things that I analyse things too deeply and sometimes things seem like what they aren't.

Sigh. It feels really cliched, but I need reminders.

When I was Studying...~

I realized that I had all (nearly) the colours of the rainbow in my pencil case (minus the pink; add in an indigo coloured object).

Can you say 'distracted'?

P.S. It's the sale season. Take me shopping. Someone. Please.

Roar!~

I'm baaaaaccckkk!!! ...for the third time now. Had to delete the first blog and privatize the second one because of some stalker. But you know what? I need to speak. Hellloooo?? I'm Mel for goodness sake.

Whoever you are, you still amaze me. You have been relentless on taking me down: you have taken the time to create a Goggle Account, no, make that two (or was it three?), to come and spam on my blog. That says a lot; I don't think someone outside my family would actually have taken the liberty to really catch up on my going-ons in such amazing detail. I'm really touched. =)

Here's a warning: for those who seriousllllyyyy have issues with me, please leave this space and click on the "Next Blog" link. Shoo, I don't need your negative vibes in here. 'Cause this space is gonna be filled with me, me and ... me.

Criticize constructively, not destructively. Be nice and rest assured, I won't bite if you do so. I'll behave. ^^